Random thoughts on Transformation

God is on the move.  I know that is obvious to many people.  But He is on the move in ME.  He has been since I was 10 years old when He got a hold of me.  Sometimes His work in me has been slow and my transformation has been imperceptible.  But in the past few years, I have sensed the He is going to do something in me, my husband and kids that is a little more obvious. 

For the past few years, Marshall and I have had a desire to be in full-time ministry.  We are particularly concerned about the poor, the mistreated, children and the spiritually lost.  When you look at the numbers that each one of those categories represent - we have ALOT of concern!  It can be overwhelming - where do we even begin?

As we have read books like Crazy Love by Francis Chan and Radical by David Platt - they have not necessarily shaped us - but they have confirmed what God has already been whispering to us.  The idea of selling everything and giving to the poor sounds wonderful - but how do you determine where to go and to whom to give?

So, the last few years, we have had more questions then answers. More mental uneasiness than ease.  And more discomfort with the typical American Dream than comfort.  Everything seems to be up for grabs:

• how we worship (Is this really what Jesus had in mind?)
• how we help people (Is this really helping anybody - or does it just make us feel better about ourselves?)
• where we live (Do we really need this big of a house?)
• how we spend money (Date nights  - Haven't there been really healthy marriages for thousands of years without spending so much money every week on an a nice evening just to celebrate us? Could that money be put to better use AND we STILL have a great marriage - maybe even a better one?)
• how we live (Are we demonstrating true Christianity to our kids or some sort of watered-down version that really isn't all that challenging or inspiring or even true?)

The only thing that has not been "up for grabs" is our relationship with Jesus.  He has been the rock admidst this sea of questions.  And, I believe, HE is the one who is whispering many of these questions in our ears.

So, now, I am looking forward to how He answers this swirling tide of questions!  And I invite you to join me in praying, questioning, listening and struggling as we strive to hear Him, love Him and obey Him.

To God be the Glory!  Amen.